I have asked for prayer once before about a month ago for prayers for me and my family. And a lot has happened since then. Unfortunately none of it good. My grandmother, whom I have been extremely close with since i was born and I share a birthday with, has weeks to live. She has cancer and is terminal. She will not live till Christmas. She will not see New Years, or my senior trip, or my graduation, or my eighteenth birthday next year. She will not see my cousins first birthdays, or their first trip to Disney world. The will not even remember her, or the amazing woman she is. It could be harder, we do know and have always known where she is going when she dies. But having just given her the news on Monday is very difficult right now. She is in alit of pain and life is just a struggle right now. I am beyond devastated and other than that I just feel numb. I'm not angry with God, I have never once doubted him or lost faith in him. But the more I pray about it the more I know this is real. I do have a certain peace in my heart with that. But at the same time I'm selfish and I want to keep her here with me. Idk what I'm going to do, let alone what my poor mother is going to do. On top of this my birth father has caused a huge ruckus, and so has his wife. I went to spend the weekend with them and my one year old sister for Halloween, they live six hours away. And my stepmother(who I've always had issues with because for some reason she hates me), kicked me out at 9:30 pm. Thankfully my grandmother was there and took me home with her and kept me for the next day until she brought me home to my mom and she and my mother both were wonderfully comforting through that. But it's hard to be ok when my stepmother has said I'll never see my sister again, and since then I haven't. They haven't even spoken to me. She has removed me from Facebook so I can't see pictures of my sister either. And I just don't understand what's going on in my life. Everything is falling apart and I just don't know what to do. I feel so stuck. And I don't even know what to pray for, guidance? Peace? Healing? Relief? I don't know. I just I don't know how to handle any of this and i just I don't know what to do.

Posted in: Other on November 28, 2015

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  • February 6, 2016

    I am praying for you, sister. You are not alone. I can't even imagine how hard it must be fore you right now with all the emotional wounds and confusion and chaos. But God KNOWS! And He cares! He is with you through all of this, so even if you can't stand up, He will carry you.

    Romans 8: 26-29 says
    26 Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. 27 Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God.
    28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

    He knows. He cares. So trust Him. <3

  • January 6, 2016

    ok so i know what i might say might be like salt in a wound but i believe you need to read it ive been praying for months about what i would type and God keeps tell me the same word. T-R-U-S-T . just trust him. it's hard i know because you lose what means the most to you but when you let go and say "Lord i trust in You and you alone,not mine but your will be done ." things DO and WILL change because you are no longer relying on you but on God. and that is what we are ment to do we cant handel life apart from God. Life is impossable when WE fallen broken people try handel it on our own. But with God ALL things are possible. And as for your step-mother pray for God to change your vew of her . praying for you may Gods love fill you up.

  • November 29, 2015

    Lamentations 3:21-23

    This I recall in my mind; therefore I

    have hope. It is because of the Lord's

    loving kindnesses that we are not consumed.

    Because His compassion doesn't fail. They are

    new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.