First off I just want to say how thankful I am for this community and all the girls who put into this and make this possible. Second I'd like to ask you ladies to please pray for me and my family. My own personal struggles and walk has honestly been put on the back burner becaus elf the amount of stress I've been under, this community has become a great crutch for me to keep going. But that's not what I'm asking prayer for. You see, three years ago my grandmother was diagnosed with breast cancer out of nowhere. It was my freshman year of high school and I was self harming and having huge struggles with my father and being bullied during my one year at public school. So on top of that my mimi was going through chemo and lost her hair and was always sick and undergoing surgery. She made a full recovery and was told she was cancer free however, she had a spot on her kidney that they said probably wasn't cancer and they left it. She was in remission. Everything was pretty much smooth sailing until this year. In February we got a phone call that my uncle, who has had drug problems for years, died of an overdose. That same week my Mimi started having trouble with her leg. But put off having it looked at. Two weeks later she fell and we had to take her to the ER. The cancer spread to her brain and she had two very large rumors causing trouble with her muscle movement, as well as about a dozen other tiny spots. We were out of town at a cancer center for a week while they did surgery and radiation. She was fine for several months, she took chemo pills and was doing great. She went back in August a week before mine and her birthday(we share a birthday) and they did some scans, and the whole thing lit up like a Christmas tree. Within two months since her last scans the cancer spread everywhere. She has it from her brain to her toes. Literally. She went through more radiation and is currently doing chemo but it doesn't seem to be working. After a scan last week one of the doctors told us that her lungs are practically made of cancer, and if the chemo doesn't start working then the most we can pray for is one last Christmas with her. I've been told she will not be alive to go on my senior trip with me because all I wanted was me, my mom, and her to be able to go and have a weekend in Florida, and now they've said she won't make it that long, that she won't be able to see me graduate, or possibly even see the first of the year. My family is very messed up and all of my grandmothers care has been put onto my mom. And we've said for years that we both knew when my Mimi passed away that our family will fall apart. My aunt has also been into drugs but claims she is now clean and she has three sons, we're constantly worried about her mental state and my grandmother dying will mostly likely fall right back into it worse than before, this will mean my parents will then get custody of her boys. And my others aunts and uncles just aren't as active in our lives. It's one big mess, and I'm not even sure what exactly I'm asking prayer for honestly. Whether it's healing, or patience, or peace. Just something.
Posted in: Other on October 11, 2015