Been struggling with self harm for the last year. Friends don't know about it but I know I need help I'm so afraid though to talk about it

Posted in: Addictions on March 2, 2015

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  • April 16, 2015

    I've re typed this four times now. Trying to find just the right words to comfort you. But also explain this. You aren't alone. That's true. But when I was in your shoes I knew that. But I ignored it. Because I didn't want comfort. I wanted to wallow in my self pity and my pain. April second marked two years since I self harmed. And I owe that solely to my best friend. Because when she found out she wa a sympathetic and worried yes. But soon after that wore down and she had to give it to me straight. And she told me that if the people around me were hurting me so badly with their words and actions if that made me feel so hopeless and helpless and like such a failure when they really were nothing to me, I'd done nothing for them or to them nor them for me. How awful must I be making God feel when I cut my wrists instead of talk to him. Instead of read my bible or at least try to find solace in him. That stung. And so I listened. And I stopped. But that doesn't mean it doesn't still affect me. Cuz sometimes I still feel that way. And I'm just now facing that completely. I had to come clean to my mom and admit to my best friends that I really need help. I can't do this by myself and I need help. You need help. Whether it's from God alone or from friends or family or a counselor. Jesus died so you wouldn't have to. He died for you to live. But at a certain point you have to let him in to help you. He loves you. You have support. You are not alone.

  • March 10, 2015

    Sweet friend, like Nina said you are most definitely not alone. I know just how scary it can be to reach out to even the closest of your friends when you need help. I would encourage you to talk to someone, anyone. A friend, mentor, counselor. From my experience I was very afraid to talk about my hurts and how I was dealing with them, but after you talk about it, maybe not the first time or the second time, but it does get easier. God is good and I know that He hurts with you and wants you to have freedom from this. I pray you will find healing and comfort during the midst of all the pain. I'm here walking right beside you and cheering you on. You are not alone sweet girl. Praying for you. xoxo -Heidi

  • March 4, 2015

    Dear friend, please know that you are not alone. God loves you and wants you to know that you don't need to have life figured out. You don't need to strive, He just wants you to rest in Him. Fear is a lie- the best thing you can do is give your situation to God and reach out to someone you trust in your community. We aren't meant to live this life alone.
    We are praying for you, sister!
    Love,
    Nina
    AGLM Team