I am one year and 10 months clean from self harm and recovering has been the most difficult thing I've had to do. 4 weeks ago I got sick with constant headaches and migraines, and I've been in a really dark place ever since then. I've never wanted to harm myself so badly before. I am dead inside and running on no energy. I've started restricting foods again and my anxiety is on a high. I am completely numb and overall scared by how gone I am. My spirits have been higher the last few days but I can still feel the numbness. Any prayer and encouragement will go a long way.

Posted in: Addictions on February 21, 2015

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  • April 11, 2015

    Dear girl. I don't know exactly what you're going through but I do have chronic migraine abd almost constant pain...so understand what it's like to be sick and have headaches. And it sucks. Persevere chica. Christ does bring joy and beauty in the midst of our pain..if only we keep walking with him. Persevere. Prayers for you!!

  • February 26, 2015

    That numbness is the worst. It makes me doubt if I'm being sincere with God or not because it is usually an emotional experience. Don't let that discourage you. Continue praying, reading your Bible, and listening to Christian music even though your emotions aren't there. Something that really helped me through my numbness was journaling my prayers to God and being completely honest. I would say things like,"God, please ignore the fact that my emotions aren't in this prayer right now. I really do mean what I am praying". You will get out of this numbness. I believe God allows those time for us to realize that our relationship with Him must be stronger than emotions.

    Isaiah 43:1-2 NKJV

    But now, thus says the Lord , who created you, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.

    As for your progress with overcoming your addiction, wow! What an awesome accomplishment. Praise God! I would love to hear any tips from you on overcoming addictions.

    Song recommendations :
    Moved by Mercy -Matthew West
    Worn - Tenth Avenue North
    Small Enough - Nichole Nordeman
    Times - Tenth Avenue North
    Faith to Believe - Shane &Shane

  • February 24, 2015

    I cannot put it into words any better than Heather and Heidi, but I want you to know that I am also praying for you.

  • February 23, 2015

    I'm praying for you sweet girl. I'm praying God will bring you peace and comfort during this dark time, when all the light seems gone. I completely understand how you feel and I have been there. Like Heather said, you are most definitely not alone. I'm here to walk beside you and cheer you on. My heart hurts for you and I will be praying for you dear friend. xoxo -Heidi.

  • February 23, 2015

    Sweet friend, our hearts are with you. We love you and stand with you in your hurt and darkness. Please let us know what we can do to walk with you and help keep you on the path for healing. Remember, you are not alone and we are for you. Love, -Heather AGLM