I recently was in a relationship with this really great guy... until I made several mistakes and screwed everything up. When we were dating, I couldn't see it at the time, but I was being very selfish and self centered. I was always finding something to be upset with him for and I never appreciated what he did for me; I only saw what "he didn't say" and what "he didn't do". When he broke up with me I was completely and utterly devastated but I can't say I blame him, I would have broken up with me too. I'm a that stage in the "after break-up" part, where you've cried and talked to your friends about it so much, that if you say one more word about the ex boyfriend, you'll more then likely be slapped. With more than plenty of time on my hands, these last couple of days I've really just spent reflecting on myself and I've realized that I am extremely and utterly all about Lauren. I think I've become my own god, and my whole life is suffering because of it. Throughout this whole breakup process, yes, my heart has really suffered and I've got to experience agony, but its also been humbling. My parents can lecture me and talk to me, but it's as if the action of him actually breaking up with me was a slap in the face. I know that it's wrong for me to be all about myself and I want to break this negative attitude spilling into my life because of it, but honestly I was so far away from God before all this happened, I feel as though this is just another thing piling up.
Posted in: Relationships on January 21, 2015