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Sooo, I actually haven't been on this blog in forever, but I just got on a whim and returned! I love the community that you girls promote. Sooooo typical high school girl drama. I was best friends with this guy for a year, and it turns out he liked me. I don't wanna say that I was completely oblivious to the fact that he liked me, but I didn't recognize it. We were best friends and I liked that. I liked that he held me accountable in my walk with Jesus. I liked that he was always there for me, and that for the first time in forever I had someone to hang out with and text everyday. I don't know, I guess I was to busy cherishing our friendship to even consider it being something more. Long story short, I find out he likes me, we try to be something more - it doesn't work. It ended bad. It ended with me feeling very vulnerable and very judged. On top of all that, I revealed some struggles I was having in my walk with Christ. I felt ashamed. So we go through the crappy phase of "yeah were friends" but when the reality is you aren't. So fast forward to the middle of junior year. I'm juggling basketball and college classes and honors pre-cal because good life choices (sarcasm) and pressure to be as good as my peers (no sarcasm) led me to do all of this. I have another guy best friend. We both play ball, and we both love Jesus. Our friendship is growing in Christ so much. We both want more than the stereotypical christian life that many of our peers take on as we live in the Bible belt. (more so worse due to the fact that we live in the most hick town) We become accountability partners. And around 1 am on a girls night, because all reasonable decisions about boys are made then, I confess that I like him in a bitter argument we're having. I feel like this is the right thing to do. I know what I want. I want a guy who loves Jesus and builds me up in that, so thinking that it's him, I tell him. *Drops Bomb* He doesn't like me like that, for whatever reason. My 16 year old heart is broken, and I cry for a number of hours. Because for 1). When you live in a small town and go to school with only 400 kids, you're probably related to over 1/2 of them and 2). the other half don't love Jesus. They don't even know Him. They put on the mask that the Bible belt provides them with, but they don't feel the true love. I guess he was the first guy worth liking in a long time. However, yet again I find myself in the same phase of "yeah we're friends" when really we're not. I've lost two friends. Two friends who held me accountable and reminded me on which heaven ward goal I was striving toward when things got rough or I strayed. It's not the fact that in either situation we didn't work out romantically, but rather that I've lost the friendships I cherished. My heart has broken in so many ways over these last couple months of school, and I tried to fix these relationships. I've come to the realization that only God can mend these relationships in which so many things have been broken, misunderstood, or confused. I just ask for prayers that He would fix them. I feel so lonely and ostracized from not only my friend group, but sports in which we all play. I just want peace. I want friends. I want understanding and love to be replaced.

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Hey ladies! I could really use some prayer/advice/encouragement right now. I apologize in advance that this may get a little lengthy. So I've been married for a year now and it's been great but something has been really bringing me down. So I've been a Christian all my life, but when my dad passed away 6 years ago, right before I started college, I rebelled against God. I was angry, hurt, and stuck in grief and depression for years. Instead of drawing nearer to God in my pain, I wanted nothing to do with him. Fast forward some years -- my husband and I got together at a time where I was starting to come out of my grief, but still wasn't looking to God anymore. As I mentioned, I grew up a Christian. I have known my husband since we were 5 years old. Growing up we always wanted to date each other but whenever one of us was single, the other was taken. Finally we were both single and decided to date and it was wonderful. Here's the thing though, my husband was so anti-Christian when we got together because when he was young his family pushed him away from Christianity. All they did was threaten him going to hell and being punished if he didn't do as they said. He was never introduced to what it really means to have a relationship with Jesus. He ended up having a near death accident and injuring his arm really bad. That was one of the lowest times in his life and because he was so turned off by Christianity he started to venture into other religions for guidance. As you can imagine, this only made his family come down on him even harder, which only pushed him more away from Christianity. So yeah, when we got together he knew I was a Christian and he made it very clear to me that he wasn't a Christian anymore like he was when we were younger. He didn't deny that God existed but thats about as far as he would budge. At the time it wasn't imperative to me that the person I dated be a Christian like me because I hadn't even thought about God, prayer, the bible, or anything since my dad had died. We dated for a long time, then we were engaged, then we got married. Here's the thing though...after we got married God started reaching out to me and drawing me nearer to him and much as I wanted to ignore it, I couldn't. All of my life (even though I was a Christian) I relied on my relationship with who I was dating to complete me, yet here I was, married to my best friend but still needing more. I spent the first half of our relationship not talking about what was going on with me spiritually because I knew how burned my husband had been by Christians before. But I couldn't keep that up for long. I finally broke down one day and told him that whenever he is experimenting with all these different religions I support him and listen to him talk about them while I'm burying the fact that I need Jesus and I needed him bad. I decided to search for a church because I needed it so desperately. My husband was super supportive and decided he would come with me. I fell in love with a church and was able to call it my church home. My husband comes with me to church every week and he volunteers with me and goes to small group with me and I can see his heart is opening up a little. He told me that he wanted to heal his relationship with Jesus and become a Christian and it makes me so happy, especially since we plan on having children. But I feel like he'll take one stop forward and five steps backwards. One day my husband will come to me excited and telling me how Jesus spoke to him and told him that all he needs is Jesus, everything he has been looking for, the answer is Jesus. But then a week later he'll tell me how he reached out to a Hindu god for protection. I don't know what to do because I'm finally back to trusting in God, reading my bible, being really involved in my church, and I feel like for me there is no turning back.. but my husband just isn't on the same page as me. He enjoys going to church with me, singing worship songs/raising his hands in worship, and volunteering with the church..but when it comes down to it, he has said that if it wasn't for me he wouldn't be going to church, and that breaks my heart. (He told me this when I didn't feel well and decided I was going to skip our small group but told him he can still go and he was like I only go to everything involving the church because of you, if you stopped, I wouldn't keep going. Guys, I am LONGING for a godly marriage. All around me are couples who both believe in Jesus as King of Kings and Lord of Lords and I just don't know what to do. I love my husband dearly and I pray for him everyday that God would open his heart and remove the blinders from his eyes but it seems like it's not going to happen. I'm losing hope. I would NEVER get a divorce but I'm just sad because I want a marriage with someone who sees Jesus as more than just a cool being who loved and cared about others. *sigh* Whenever I feel down about it I remember 1 Corinthians 7:13-14 And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy. But then I'll also remember verses like 2 Corinthians 6:14 which says Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness? ... Man my heart is so heavy guys. I know God has the power to change my husband's heart but it seems so impossible. My husband likes to take bits and pieces of different religions and he thinks they all have beneficial things they can offer. He isn't hip to the idea of hell and being condemned for our sins. He doesn't even like the word sin. I just feel so sad. I so badly want for him to be a Christian 100% and believe what I believe but I feel so hopeless. I love him so so much and always will and will never leave him but I don't know what else to do besides pray for him. Please help with any advice or encouragement. And please please pray! If you read all of this, THANK YOU! <3

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I don't think that I process my emotions correctly. My grandfather on my mom's side passed away Saturday morning after the doctors finding a brain tumor Thursday night. He'd been having health issues with his heart, so we'd all been kind of expecting it to happen, but not for a couple of years. And not because of his head. It sounds terrible, but I wasn't sad that he died. I was sad for my family (especially my mom and younger cousins) for having to go through it.And today I found out that my grandfather on my stepdad's side has rapid liver cancer, and the doctors only gave him a couple of months to live. I don't feel sad. I just feel numb and weird. I chalk it up to numbing myself emotionally whenever bad stuff happens - a childhood habit that I've had since my parents divorced when I was six.I'm afraid that because of this, I don't let myself get close to anyone emotionally. I have yet to tell any of my friends about my grandfather's recent death, or that my other one has cancer, apparently. I can't talk about this, and I feel like this is going to follow me throughout my life, unable to talk about my feelings due to situations that I've encountered.I don't like my two closest friends. I feel like everything could spin out of control and I'm terrified of the future. I'm scared that I won't ever meet "The One" and that I'm creating an idol out of the idea of getting married. I feel selfish that I feel all of these things, but not sadness for my grandpa dying, or the other one having cancer. I don't know. I just need prayer for strength. And probably a lot of other things.Sorry for rambling. I was only going to type a couple of things and this all vomited out.

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Hey sweet friends! This is a follow-up from my last post. It was long and rantish and yeah... I was really down that day. Even though everything I said was true, I was being sinfully angry and y'all had to be subjected to that. So I'm sorry for my bitterness and sinful anger.After a blow-up last Sunday night with my mom. I do not usually totally blow-up, but when I do, it's loud and crazy and even after I stop screaming, I want to scream for hours so I shut up like a clam.Well, we talked (well, mostly SHE talked) and I realized with horror I needed to surrender e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g to God. Horror because 1) I have a very profound fear of the unknown. and 2) I have an even more intense fear of not feeling in control. I knew I could trust God. (Kind of) What I was really terrified about was the fact that I didn't know who I was when I wasn't insisting to be controlling of my life. My control, mistrust, perfectionism and bitterness have defined my life, even when I thought they weren't. I didn't know what to do without them cause I always ended up running back to them!I blinked and cried and decided I needed to actively change NOW or else I really never would.My mom told me she didn't want me to do school tomorrow. (I cried I was so relieved. btw, I'm homeschooled)So I took off work, and sat down, read a Christian Biography, and slowly, steadily, handed over every hurt, pain, sin, anger I could think of. I didn't feel terribly different. Just felt peaceful. Oh so peaceful. I've asked forgivness from my family. It's been a process (I yelled at people that Monday!) and will be a process, I know, and I'm okay with that. Everything doesn't have to be perfect *right now*. I'm at rest with that. I'm at rest with my life (though it's not the life I would've chosen) I'm at rest in His love. I know He has thrown my sins into the depths of the sea and I promised Him I would do my best to not go fishing for them anymore. He's all I want, all I need, my everything. I wondered why I couldn't find rest and I angrily demanded answers. The subtle but monumental answer was surrender. I finally feel rest.Hallelujah!

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Can ya'll be praying for a friend of mine? I haven't talked to her in a while so I saw her last week she said she has been having suicidle thoughts. As long as I've known her she's never been a warm and happy person, she's been depressed and self-harming. Can ya'll be praying that the enemy would stop speaking lies to her & and that Gods truth would overcome in her life.

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Today is one of the hardest days. Everyone around me is trying to tell me how to "fix" my mindset and they seem to think I shouldn't be overwhelmed, drained, or lonely, angry or confused. They say "It's just life!" "Just life" is just a little too much right now. And I already know what I SHOULD do. Now my mom misjudged me and is totally disappointed in me. My mom is the only reason I haven't run away yet. I hate the conflict. I can't stand how everyone either pretends nothing is at all wrong (I'm the only one sitting there like, "OK, he just said that to you and you aren't giving him what-for?!") OR they suddenly fly off the hook over the thing that's been happening everyday for the past how-many-months and go crazy for half an hour.I've given up because all my attempts to help and do right and be good--it doesn't work and I'm tired of using so much emotional energy to do things that don't help at all. And my situation...well, it only gets worse. The people who tell me to fix myself make my life harder themselves (half of the time by telling me to fix myself simply out of exasperation and offering no support)! I beat myself up cause I feel like a coward to just give up. But I haven't given up (completely) for almost 5 years now. In my immediate family everyone thinks I'm dramatic, they don't (won't) understand my trouble, and they either hate me or are disappointed in me. I'm disappointed in myself.Point being, my life is a mess and everyone can't understand how I can't just sit there and cheerfully suck up the lies, injustice, chaos, confusion, hate, and disturbing tolerance of sin. Seriously. A family member told me I needed to just be cheerful and do what I needed to do. WHAT?! Maybe running away doesn't help, but staying makes it worse, at least in my case.Sorry the the rant, but no one understands except for God and I'm so lonely and angry. And I'm getting bitter and I hate what I'm becoming. I had to share with somebody and that certainly wouldn't be with my family. Please pray for me when/if you think of me. Thanks for bearing with me if you made it this far!

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hey guys.... I'm struggling so bad right now. Latley I cannot say no to temptation, EVER. I can be doing something wrong and hearing Bible verses in my head about how wrong it is and doing it anyway. then I beat myself up about it but I still screw it up every day. I get depressed super easily and these types of things drag me down so deep. Pray I start to have the courage to resist temptation. I know that if God is in me I can do anything but I don't see how he can work through the crap I'm always giving Him.. I know the truth but sometimes doubt is stronger.

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Hey lovelies! I've been reading "Out of Sorts" by Sarah Bessey and it's so refreshing but as soon as I put it down and continue in my desert (which is mostly of my own unintentional making over the past few years) I find myself feeling so drained and overwhelmed, lonely, and confused. Like you, Chelsea, I am in the desert and I am ready for the view to change. It doesn't help that I'm not dealing with it well. It's almost an addiction to respond childishly because I have for my whole life--kinda twisted I know. Really, this desert I'm going through is having me struggling with all the categories--except for fun, though there are those little oasis moments that are actually fun. So if any of y'all who see this and understand my rambling could pray for me, it would mean a lot. Thanks.

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Hey my dears, I need some prayers right now for two of my family members living with me. They both have different addictions. One has a drug addiction and the other one has a drinking addiction. I need some help prayer that these two find a way to get better. To overcome their addiction and fix themselves in a way they feel good about themselves. My mom, and myself have been praying non-stop for these two. I don't want my family to have more hurt in it, to have more brokeness that we already have, and broken relationships among each other. So please help me in prayer to help my two family members to overcome their addictions somehow, to help save themselves from the grip of their addictions. Thank you all in advance for your prayers. <3

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Hi girls! I have been battling an addiction. An addiction called self-loathing. When I have a bad day, a day where the hatred towards myself just seeps in, it takes a few days to recover. I ask that as I continue with the battle to love me and the woman God created me to be that you all pray for me.

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Hey girls. I just am struggling with some family relationships right now as well as feeling optimistic about some. I mean, I'm VERY flawed: I say piercing, damaging words which I quickly regret. I tend to either shut-up or be brutally honest, and I'm very misunderstood and very misunderstanding. I'm proud and I don't give people a lot of room to change. The point being, I need to give more grace, listen better, and just love like Jesus. My pride and fear keep getting in the way. It's a real struggle. But that's the point. I want it to be more of a struggle and less of a surrender to my flesh. Cause right now it's not that way. Please pray for me!! Tonight I confessed and apologized to a family member I've hurt and afterwards had a LONG conversation with them and I feel so challenged and encouraged. I'm SO thankful for this and it makes me hopeful for the future! Just wanted to share cause my family and my relationships with them are such a gigantic part of my life and they're on my mind! Love y'all!

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Hey guys..I have this problem with letting God have the glory. It definitely doesn't come easily to me and I'm struggling with thinking ALL ABOUT what fellow screwed up humans think of me. Prayer would be so appreciated. Just that I would remember to stay in The Word and to keep trusting gHim no matter the cost...it's just been so tough to listen to God telling me the truth and to listen to God over people. Agh. Sorry this is kind of scattered. Thanks ya'll.

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Hi again I'm moving next month to live closer to my birth family. I'm excited but also a little scared, scared that i will follow through with the Ed relapse I have planned, scared that my birth family will not like having me closer, scared that my family with resent me for moving, even though it's something I need to do, etc. At the same time I am so excited to finally have the relationship with my birth parents that I've been needing, and to start a new job and live independently. I guess I would like prayers that I will make smart and healthy choices, and not give in to the Ed voice telling me that this is a great way to relapse and finally lose the weight I've gained in forced recovery. Thanks!

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Hello my lovely sisters! So I've been recognizing some lies I've been telling myself and believing. Today I was babysitting kids at VBS and I got kind of impatient and stern and kind of yelled at them. And then I thought, "Uh, you're a terrible person and a terrible babysitter and now the kids won't like you anymore." Then I remembered Heather's post and thought, "That's a lie I'm telling myself and I'm just hurting myself. I could just be more patient and relaxed. It doesn't mean I'm a jerk forever if I'm not wonderful for a minute." (It's more like "I acted nice! Wow!" haha) So I guess I'm just thankful that I'm starting to call out lies when I tell them because that's the first step to (mostly successfully) battling them. As I battle lies, I know it'll definitely be better for how I view myself because now I'll be trying to view myself how God views me and not how Satan does. And I'm also happy cause I got to talk to a girlfriend today about self-image and I think it was encouraging on both ends. Sorry for my randomness, but I just feel so happy.

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So I have a friend who has had a hard life. His parents are divorced and his dad and step-mom are devoted atheists and my friend is a Christian. He mostly lives with his dad and step-mom which is tough on him. I have been praying for him and his family and thing where getting better for him and his dad, but I talked to him a week ago and thing have gotten harder for his family. I want to do something more than just pray but I feel like that’s all I can do. If you have any ideas of what I can do to encourage my friend I would greatly appreciate it. thx

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I'm being hurt by a friend who doesn't understand my feelings. She thinks she does, but she's kind of made up her own version of what I've told her. Prayer would be appreciated.You can't help people change if they refuse to see what's wrong

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Hey friends, I have a prayer request. Well, I have to tell my sister that she's hurting me and I'm tired of pretending she doesn't--our relationship is struggling and she's undependable and drains me and makes life harder for me more than she's an actual friend to me. I feel like I can't be real or even live life like a normal human without her critiquing everything I do. I want our relationship to be REAL friendship. I'll have to be vulnerable to have to tell her this and I'm almost sure she'll say I'm being dramatic and reject me and downplay my pain and desire for a deep, loving sisterhood. I'm scared and worried about how this will turn out. My heart shrink from the idea of another wound. Please pray for me to have the courage to just be vulnerable so she at least knows I'm hurting and that God would be my strength so that I can love her with His love no matter her response. Thanks girls. <3

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I'm so tired of getting friends who I think are awesome and then losing them. They have just walked out of my life and they don't care any more. I don't want to get close to anyone at all and yet I still feel like the friends I have now acually care about me and i fell really really stupid about thinking that. I know this sounds depressing and you'll probly tell me to rely on God more then people, I really don't want to sound snobby but I know that. But it also feels like God dosen't see that people keep leaving 'cause it keeps happing. I don't know what I'm asking for, but just keep me in your prayers

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So.... my whole life I've been single. No guy has ever shown any interest in me, until recently. I used to think it would be nice to have guys that were at least interested in me. I thought it would boost my self esteem. Now 3 guys have shown interest in me in less than a month. I've pretty much awkwardly turned each one down. The first two because I honestly wasn't interested. The third because I don't know him that well and I'm terrified to even start the pre-relationship get to know each other phase. I don't want to date anyone that God doesn't want me too, but I'm also so scared for my own heart that I might miss him telling me it's okay. I'm scared I'll get hurt or realize that, that guy wasn't for me and both of our time will have been wasted. What if I get in a relationship with the wrong guy and miss the right one? What would people think if I did get in a relationship? Let's face it, I'm not scared I'm straight up terrified.

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My heart is broken over the loss of a dream. Several years ago God gave me a passion for a people & their culture. I have prayed for an opportunity to go to them and share the gospel. 2 years ago I was going to go & it fell through at the last minute. I was planning to go this summer. I was fully funded and had purchased my plane ticket. Then a few weeks ago I had a severe allergic reaction to one of the vaccines & was taken to the ER. The doctor told me I can't get certain vaccines required by law to enter the country. I am so sad and confused about what God is doing. Please pray for my faith. I want to be obedient to God. I don't understand why He keeps leading my heart and then closing doors. My heart is shattered. Thank you for prayers

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I feel like such a whiner, I'm sorry. But I feel so sad and angry and alone, for what seems like no reason. I hate my body, more than ever, I am planning to move away, and let my eating disorder take over once again because, I honestly just don't care anymore. I'm a burden to other people, i'm a burden to myself, I don't know if praying will help, but if you think of it, i'd appreciate it.

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I know boys aren't everything and it's stupid to define your worth on if a boy likes you or not but honestly it would be nice to hear "I love you" from another man then my dad or brother. The reason I'm saying this is because she's daiting a guy after 3 years of saying she won't, and she keep going on and on about how her boyfriend loves her. Honestly it really hurts me. I'm a little insecure about myself 'cause what if I never meet guy or what if do but he dosen't love me as much as my friend's boyfriend loves her? or what if I'll never be good enough?

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Sometimes I have to fight to keep my faith in certain situations. I realized this during this time when I'm strengthen my relationship with God. But I know I have to keep him close, but there are days where his comfort and guidance feel so small. Some of the times this happens feels like he is testing me like he normally does with me. Then there are times he is showing me what he needs me to do. But I'm always stuck in a way of figuring out my path with God. I'm still learning my path, the reason I'm here, and so forth. I need faithly advice: Should I keep pray to God about what he show me of his plan for me? Or should I just let him still do all of the work in the mean time?

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I've really been struggling with what God has for me, impatience with waiting for it, and finding myself falling when things get into a lull. The hardest part for me, though, is with waiting for who He has as a husband for me - if that's even in the cards at all. Ever since I was a little girl, I've always dreamt about the one day when I'll meet whoever I'm supposed to be with. But I believe that the idea has become a sort of idol for me, something that I'm putting above my need for a relationship with God. I know that I must rely solely on Him before any human relationship. It's just so hard, especially whenever I see my friends all in the middle of their college careers and having relationships and growing up, whereas I feel like I'm stagnant. Like I'm going to be stuck in this small town forever. Now, I know that that isn't true, but it's still tough. And I also know that this isn't anywhere near some of the other things that people post on here. It's just... I would really appreciate some prayer for this, to have God help guide me through this period of my life.Thanks.

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I wrote this on a follow up post I'd previously written, but I'm pretty sure that one is so far buried that no one will probably see it.Anyway, I'd like to ask y'all to pray...Hi everyone. I need to update this community. In so doing, I need to ask you to pray for me. My heart is feeling shattered right now, so broken. My little girl, Janet, fought courageously against brain cancer for three years. She passed away three weeks ago. At 7 y/o, she lived more life than many will live in a lifetime.She knew she was dying, and she wasn't scared. She went from being given 4-6 months to live to 4-6 minutes in a span of 11 days. But, through God's grace, she was free of most pain, and in so much peace during her final days. She was ready to meet Jesus.All these things bring comfort and peace to this mama's heart. Though, I miss her like crazy. Friends, my heart hurts. I would really appreciate prayer.

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I would greatly appreciate your prayers over the next few months, I am trying to seek Gods will and guidance in a very difficult situation. I am currently considering taking legal action against my biological father and his wife so that I may gain rights to see my sister. For the past six months they have refused to let me have any contact with her, talk to her see her or anything. They have blocked me on all social media so that I cannot even see pictures of her and when my grandmother visits they will not allow her to have her phone with my sister and take pictures because they think she will show the pictures to me. I have found a few things that would allow me to gain rights to see her, but I do not want to make it a legal battle unless I know that I will be able to see her, because I do not want them to stop allowing my grandmother to see my sister or to move and just disappear. But I truly fear for the kind of life my siste will have without somebody there for her. my stepmother is not a good person and is the reason I cannot see my sister, she has been conniving and verbally abusive, she grew up in a very verbally abusive situation and I fear that will pass on to her relationship with my sister. Please just pray for her, my sister, the whole situation and that I may know the right actions to take.

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I currently have an offer on the table to serve with a really cool ministry in a national park for 90 days this summer. The issue is that I now have full assurance that God wants me to go on a separate week-long trip to Haiti towards the beginning of this 90-day commitment. So, either I go to Haiti and decline the offer from the ministry, or I ask the ministry if I can delay my start date until after I return from Haiti - not sure if this is even a possibility. Also, I haven't told my parents about this ministry offer yet, and it's a good 1,000 miles away - that part is big because they could easily keep me from going. Just asking for prayer in wisdom, trust, my parents' hearts to be calmed when I tell them, and a change in heart for me if necessary.

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Haven't had assurance of salvation, been wondering for 10 years since 13 years old. Feeling the pull of the world...just please keep me in prayer.

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The best thing to hold unto in this life :JesusAs this year draws to a close and another one quickly approaches, their is a tendency to rush ahead, after all a shiny new year is up ahead with all the promises of grandeur hidden in it's wings, and I, like many people am so ready for the possibilities that it holds. But their is another side to this desire and it's the potential to move so fast now that I rush ahead of the moment, the place, the season that God has me in, and worse of all the potential to even rush ahead of God. Proverbs 3 5-6 says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight." That for me is a very telling passage that says so much to my often restless heart. So today instead of rushing ahead and building castles made of air, I'm reflecting back on this year and even on previous years, and in doing so I'm noticing that they all show the finger of God. His handprints are all over my life, from the glorious mountain top moments , to the dark trudge through the valley. He's always been there: guiding me, holding me, patiently teaching me, binding up my wounds, and constantly showering me with His love. Even those hard moments where I just didn't understand , the moments where I felt alone, He was always there . And I've learned to thank Him for my trials, to thank Him for my struggles, to thank Him for my winter season, because they've formed in me what an endless Summer could not, they've formed in me compassion, humility, and a growing resemblance to Jesus, the Forerunner. "Where the Forerunner Jesus has entered for us, made a High Priest forever after the order Melchisedech." Hebrews 6:20 . So before I make one resolution for the coming year, I'm stopping today to thank the One who wrote everyone of days in His book, the One who numbers every hair on my head, Who collects every tear I've ever shed, and Who has my name written on the palm of His hand. He tells me He has plans for my good, and to give me a perfect end, and you know what ? I trust Him.

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So recently I've been kinda out of touch with God, grumpy, and struggling with eating too much. So if y'all could pray for me when/if you think of me that would be great. It's great to know people know and care. Thanks. :)

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Please pray for the life changes that are coming up for me this next year. I am hoping to move to be closer to my biological family. Pray that that will go well and that my family won't resent me for moving away from them. Also- pray that i'll be able to find a place to either buy or rent..

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My eating disorder is killing me.. I tell everyone I am better but i'm not. Sometimes I want it to kill me.

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I've been struggling with this addiction for so long now and I'm so sick of it but I don't now what to do. I recently started college and I believe strong community is to be found here, but I just don't know how to trust people here yet

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I have asked for prayer once before about a month ago for prayers for me and my family. And a lot has happened since then. Unfortunately none of it good. My grandmother, whom I have been extremely close with since i was born and I share a birthday with, has weeks to live. She has cancer and is terminal. She will not live till Christmas. She will not see New Years, or my senior trip, or my graduation, or my eighteenth birthday next year. She will not see my cousins first birthdays, or their first trip to Disney world. The will not even remember her, or the amazing woman she is. It could be harder, we do know and have always known where she is going when she dies. But having just given her the news on Monday is very difficult right now. She is in alit of pain and life is just a struggle right now. I am beyond devastated and other than that I just feel numb. I'm not angry with God, I have never once doubted him or lost faith in him. But the more I pray about it the more I know this is real. I do have a certain peace in my heart with that. But at the same time I'm selfish and I want to keep her here with me. Idk what I'm going to do, let alone what my poor mother is going to do. On top of this my birth father has caused a huge ruckus, and so has his wife. I went to spend the weekend with them and my one year old sister for Halloween, they live six hours away. And my stepmother(who I've always had issues with because for some reason she hates me), kicked me out at 9:30 pm. Thankfully my grandmother was there and took me home with her and kept me for the next day until she brought me home to my mom and she and my mother both were wonderfully comforting through that. But it's hard to be ok when my stepmother has said I'll never see my sister again, and since then I haven't. They haven't even spoken to me. She has removed me from Facebook so I can't see pictures of my sister either. And I just don't understand what's going on in my life. Everything is falling apart and I just don't know what to do. I feel so stuck. And I don't even know what to pray for, guidance? Peace? Healing? Relief? I don't know. I just I don't know how to handle any of this and i just I don't know what to do.

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Would definitely appreciate prayers for my church. We're newer and have already hit some very rough spots, but know that it's all to make us stronger. My church is like family and I want to see us grow despite our ups and downs. Thanks so much ! Appreciate all of you :)

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In honor of the Day of Action to end Violence against Women Living With HIV, I decided to share a piece of my experience with being in an abusive relationship. I had to learn to love myself. I hope this video inspires you to do the same!https://youtu.be/leUPDJQRo38

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Hey girls! I just wanted to ask for prayer about a pretty big decision I'm going to be making.I've felt a call to be a worship leader for quite a while and have been actively involved with worship at my church for several years. Recently, the opportunity to attend a school of worship at another local church has opened up to me. I've been feeling like God might be calling me to do this. Part of me desires to and is excited to pursue this, but another part is super scared.Admittedly, I'm not a huge fan of change. I know that pursuing this would mean leaving my home church, and likely I would have to leave the security of my current job for something more flexible.My deepest desire is to be obedient to what God wants; I want him to use me how he see's fit. I guess what I'm saying is, I want to really be certain that this is from God and not just me. Thanks guys!

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First off I just want to say how thankful I am for this community and all the girls who put into this and make this possible. Second I'd like to ask you ladies to please pray for me and my family. My own personal struggles and walk has honestly been put on the back burner becaus elf the amount of stress I've been under, this community has become a great crutch for me to keep going. But that's not what I'm asking prayer for. You see, three years ago my grandmother was diagnosed with breast cancer out of nowhere. It was my freshman year of high school and I was self harming and having huge struggles with my father and being bullied during my one year at public school. So on top of that my mimi was going through chemo and lost her hair and was always sick and undergoing surgery. She made a full recovery and was told she was cancer free however, she had a spot on her kidney that they said probably wasn't cancer and they left it. She was in remission. Everything was pretty much smooth sailing until this year. In February we got a phone call that my uncle, who has had drug problems for years, died of an overdose. That same week my Mimi started having trouble with her leg. But put off having it looked at. Two weeks later she fell and we had to take her to the ER. The cancer spread to her brain and she had two very large rumors causing trouble with her muscle movement, as well as about a dozen other tiny spots. We were out of town at a cancer center for a week while they did surgery and radiation. She was fine for several months, she took chemo pills and was doing great. She went back in August a week before mine and her birthday(we share a birthday) and they did some scans, and the whole thing lit up like a Christmas tree. Within two months since her last scans the cancer spread everywhere. She has it from her brain to her toes. Literally. She went through more radiation and is currently doing chemo but it doesn't seem to be working. After a scan last week one of the doctors told us that her lungs are practically made of cancer, and if the chemo doesn't start working then the most we can pray for is one last Christmas with her. I've been told she will not be alive to go on my senior trip with me because all I wanted was me, my mom, and her to be able to go and have a weekend in Florida, and now they've said she won't make it that long, that she won't be able to see me graduate, or possibly even see the first of the year. My family is very messed up and all of my grandmothers care has been put onto my mom. And we've said for years that we both knew when my Mimi passed away that our family will fall apart. My aunt has also been into drugs but claims she is now clean and she has three sons, we're constantly worried about her mental state and my grandmother dying will mostly likely fall right back into it worse than before, this will mean my parents will then get custody of her boys. And my others aunts and uncles just aren't as active in our lives. It's one big mess, and I'm not even sure what exactly I'm asking prayer for honestly. Whether it's healing, or patience, or peace. Just something.

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9 people in my life have died in the last 2 weeks. 4 babies/toddlers, 4 middle aged, and 1 elderly. Please pray for everyone who is in a tremendous amount of pain right now.

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My story? It's a long one.I'm struggling to stop this addiction. I feel like it's so terrible I don't want to say the word, even typing here. It happens because I give in to temptation, and I know when it's coming, but I can't seem to ask the Holy Spirit for help and instead, I go with my need to feel this for "just one more time."It's hard. And I know it's so wrong. But it happens still, after being a believer for a very long time. Would you be praying that I can seek the Lord first, before giving in again? I need it to stop.

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Seven years ago I got plugged in to a primary school for my undergrad course work. This past weekend, a kindergarten teaching team from that school was killed in a car crash. This is my first year to teach kindergarten since I graduated from college. I'm really struggling and hurting from the death of these friends. Ive been having a hard time focusing at work on my own littles. Please pray everyone being affected by this tragic loss. Thank you.

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Dose God care about me ? To be honest it feels like he dose not it feels like God only cares about the people who are physiclly ill. I have friends who's sick and whenever we go to a concert or youth group together she always gets prayed over an told she's loved (and i really do love her) . Then look on the sideline and there's me who has A LOT of things going on right now but none seems to notice the feeling of love and hope for me is lost I want to read the Bible but I can't seem to open it up. I'm afraid if i do I'll be told I'm being to selfish. so am I? I'm to selfish? Dose God love me even though there's nothing wrong with my body

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Why do I feel so alone? I know I have GREAT family and friends and I have God as well but the past month I have been feeling so alone. So hears my first question. Why do I so alone?

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Hi everyone. My family and I are really struggling financially at this moment. We've been up and down money-wise for the past four years, and on top of that there has been a divorce to go through and an unsteady job market to navigate. In the past months I've had a lot of issue trusting God that He will see us through. I know He does, because He's helped us out so so much these past years, but I just feel like when can we breathe, when can we be stable financially? It's so stressful not to have a steady job (or no job at all!) and to have to pay rent, the bills, groceries and everything else. We have to make rent for this month, by next week AND I need about $2000 for some other expenses. I'm trying not to despair and trust that God will see us through, but I'm having A LOT of trouble at the moment (especially since I'm trying to be strong and optimistic for everyone else in the family). Thank you for praying, I really appreciate it.

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Hello everybody. I have an eleven year old niece, who is a hazard to herself. She has had a twisted childhood, and as a result she has severe mental challenges. She, recently, almost burned her house down. If you all could just keep her in prayer, I'd appreciate it. Thank you.

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I'm just really struggling to understand my salvation right now. Am I saved or am I not saved has seemed to be the million dollar question in my life for the past several years. I'm just really confused...and I know God doesn't want me to feel that way, but that doesn't stop confusion from flooding my body. I just keep running from God when in turn I should be running into His arms.

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So the Desperation conferance in Colorado is next week. I'm glad I'm going but I DO NOT want to go. You see the past 10 months have been foucused on my brother and friend who need physical healing and everyone sees them and the pain they have , then there's me a girl who's has deprestion and none sees it, a girls who just wants to be seen. My fear is that the speakers will only foucus on the physical healing not the kind i need. I'm sorry for my spelling

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I seriously need prayer right now.6 months ago, I woke up in a hospital and I thought I was dreaming or in hell. As I slowly realized it was only a traumatic brain injury that had taken my memory, my processing speed, and my ability to speak clearly, I started to pray again, because who prays in dreams? Not I. Who realized that she wasn't dreaming? I did. I was scared and I prayed because I couldn't do much else. Now? I almost have my memory back, I can speak, and my processing speed is half of what it was. And I still pray. Desperately. Because I'm 16 and scared of dying or of losing everything and forgetting about God. I'm scared of getting depressed again, of relapsing into my eating disorder and my self-harm addiction. I'm scared of losing everything. So yeah. Prayers much appreciated.

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does God love me even if I have a personality disorder? i have avpd and bpd. i looked it up and ppl say that personality disorders are demons living inside of someone. does that mean i'm not saved? does that mean God doesn't love me? Does that mean I did something bad to deserve this?

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Urgent prayer need: My best friend if he can not find either a job or get accepted into a college by the 6th of July will be getting deported out of the country. Please be in heavy prayer for both him and I. Thank you so much girls! :)

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Hello! First of all, I would like to express how thankful I am for this community! You ladies are such a blessing! Secondly, this fall, I'll be attending a smaller, private, Christian university as a COLLEGE FRESHMAN! Sorry for yelling, but I just can't believe I'm already at this stage in my life! I was wondering if anyone had any tips for me to consider while going into this new season. I'm mostly nervous about not being completely sure of what I'm going to study. Everyone I've talked to, though, has said that I have some time to figure that out, so I'm trying to not worry about it too much. Anyway, thank you all, and I hope you all have a nice day!

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Hello ladies! I've really been struggling lately with my faith. I've gotten to the point where I just want to start over with God, but it is so hard to accept the grace I know He freely gives and believe that He will forgive me for straying away from Him. So, instead of running to Him, I keep running away from Him. If y'all will, please pray for me. I'm lost. I don't know what to do. Thank you.

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What's on my mind? Oh so many things, but today I am struggling. Today i need a friend that I don't have. I have never had many friends the ones I did have found a way out or my life and they didn't even care to come back. I have had some terrible friends in my life "friends" who made me feel that I wasn't good enough a friend actually told me I didn't matter I was stupid enough to still want to be friends after that in the end I was hurt and we rarely speak any more. I've had friends who just had me as a filler until the better people came along and I was thrown to the side like and old pair old socks. I am shy and awkward and I don't like to talk about my self and my feelings, i don't let people because I have always felt I didn't matter because the people that I would open up to just found someone else anyway or they would find some stupid reason to be angry at me and there I was left again. Most of the time I don't mind not having any friends it just allows me to not get hurt yet again , but today I hurt because I don't have that friend to talk with and feel that I matter. I pray everyday that God would send me a good friend i know one day he will answer that prayer but until then I have to feel good about myself and not let those bad friends ruin me and break me down long after they found someone better. That is me struggle today, knowing I am good enough and I do matter. I have a friend in Jesus and that is what gets me through rough days like today!

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I remember that after I learned that I had infertility that I wanted distance between myself and anything child related. I wanted to shut off that part of life and ignore it because it was a life I feared I would never have. I began to plan my career around not having children. Maybe I could be a lawyer? A doctor? A nurse? Anything but a teacher or any motherly type of career.Yet, my heart was breaking because I knew that I didn’t really want that. I wanted to mother little ones and to love on them. I wanted to have children to call my own and to shower them in hugs and clean up their messes. There isn’t really a career path for that life. You can’t get a college degree in it. It’s supposed to “happen” naturally.And it didn’t. It doesn’t. Not for me. For everyone else it seems, but not me. I thought maybe my hormone levels were off. Nope. Maybe I had something wrong structurally. Nope. No, it turns out that it’s stranger and in many ways worse than I imagined. Somehow my body has an actual immune response to children. It treats the child as if it is a foreign object and rejects it, sometimes before I even know. My immune system is constantly in overdrive which is also why I don’t get sick easily at all, but I also have terrible allergies. How’s that for weird biology? There’s an entire scientific explanation behind why this happens, but it took me reading 274 pages in a book to begin to understand it, so I’ll spare you the intense details. So for me, having a child looks a lot like 400+ shots and popping a billion pills because for whatever reason, my body doesn’t do what it was made to do.My heart hurts. Yes, it hurts. There are sometimes it hurts so bad that I just don’t want to get out of bed and do anything. I want to cry and scream and throw things because this world isn’t fair. It’s just not fair, and I wanted to distance myself so far away from anything that could remind me of the life I dreamed of. I wanted eight biological children and four adopted. For whatever reason, that’s been on my heart for the longest time. I didn’t handpick it. It sort of appeared one day. Yes, twelve beautiful children. It may seem crazy, but that’s what my heart wanted, and my dear husband fell in love with this dream as well.I know in these moments the last thing I want to do is read my Bible because I want to be angry and frustrated and upset at the situation, but I know to read it because I need peace. I need hope. I need God’s promises etched into my heart again and again and again.So, after many months of avoiding reading my Bible because it hurt. I picked it up, and my heart began to soften and mend.And God boldly carried me to a place of healing.It was a hot July morning, and I woke up feeling as if I needed to check out First Baptist Church Clarksville on Sunday. I had zero connections to this church. None of my friends went there. I didn’t have family that went there. I didn’t know any acquaintances that went there. So, for me, this was the strangest nudge from God I had ever been given. That Sunday went by, and if I remember correctly, another Sunday went by, and finally, I went. I mustered some courage and faith, and I went. I had never been here before. I had no clue where I was. I walked through the preschool entrance, up the stairs, and just followed the crowd into the sanctuary.I sang along to familiar tunes, listened to the sermon, and I thoroughly enjoyed the experience. So, I came back. A few Sundays went by, and then, August came. The church was seeking volunteers for Sunday School and people to help out in the preschool area. On a whim, I signed my husband and I up. We had both wanted to become more involved with the church anyway. Next thing I knew, I was standing in a classroom of eager three year olds trying to figure out how to teach them about Jesus, sharing, and kindness. If you’ve never tried to teach a classroom of three year olds, it’s intimidating, at least for me, when you’ve never done this before. The first month or two were a little rocky. I had to find what worked and what didn’t. I had to learn the best way for me to communicate with the children and the children to communicate with me. I had to find my “teacher voice”.I learned a lot in a short period of time, and I fell in love.I fell so madly in love with preschool ministry. I loved spending so much time with these little ones. I love their kind little hearts that just poured and poured with love. I loved the way they asked the most unusual questions. I loved the way they saw the world around them. I loved watching them grow, and each and everyday spent with them filled me with more and more hope that God’s promises are true because I saw them coming to life in these three year old children.How’s that for really awesome?When I was feeling hurt and angry and frustrated and wanting to run so far away from God, he sent me to a tribe of tiny disciples that shared love and hope with me, and I’m not even sure they realize how precious their love is to me.They bring me joy, such joy, and unimaginable healing and peace.So, as VBS begins this week, I can’t wait to learn to walk more in God’s way with my classroom of kiddos because these little ones are great mentors in learning to follow God.-MAnd your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left. -Isaiah 30:21

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Hi :) So I in college right now, and life is hectic. Schools out for summer, but this past semester I had two jobs and a few six hour classes. I also commute an hour to my school. In the midst of all that, it's been hard for me to get connected at my church. On top of that--I'm really shy about meeting new people. I have gone to my church for many years but it is really big which makes it hard to get connected, especially for introverts like me who are overwhelmed in big crowds of people. I feel God pulling my heart telling me to try to have fellowship with other believers, but the busy schedule and the nervousness of being the new person in the group is holding me back. I'm not sure if maybe I should try going to a new church that is smaller, so maybe I'll feel less overwhelmed and can't start out small? I've been struggling with this for a while, and am praying about it and seeking out what God plans for me. Any advice on this? Prayers are appreciated. Thank you.:)

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In high school you experience so many things, and through those experiences you learn SO many things... or at least I do. Through those experiences I write, and write, and occasionally sketch. There's something about that time of night when your exhausted and your entire being is forced to be still and yield to what God has to say to you...and those are the times I write things. The aspect that I love about my writing and sketching is that it's real. I've gone through some really great things in life, but I've also gone through some really challenging and hard things and I choose to write about both. I'm at the point in my life where I want to know what God wants me to do with my life, and I feel as though God guides my writing so much I almost wonder if my every so often page entries on my computer are meant to be something more. I just have this yearning for people to hear what God has revealed to me and what I've learned through my walk with God. I'm just praying that God's will would be done with my writing!

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Just a college grad trying to figure out what to do with my life. Specifically, I am feeling a tug towards ministry and know I would LOVE it- but have parents hammering down on me to go to head school so I can get a job that "provides health insurance" and "let's me raise a family". I can slowly see them opening up to me doing what I feel called to...but prayers are definitely appreciated :) for me and them. thanks all!

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Hey guys! I live in Texas and this past week has been kind of crazy with the weather. There's been multiple small tornados, and yesterday Austin and other surrounding cities got major flooding. My family, friends, and I are all fine, but there are several people who have gone missing in the floods, not to mention all those who have lost their homes and businesses. I just read a news report that said up to a thousand people have possibly been left homeless. I just wanted to ask ya'll to keep Texas in your prayers!

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there's a really cute guy (i know looks aren't everything) at my youth group and my friends have told me that he is very nice but I'm afraid to talk to him I'm afraid I'll say something i will regret and i don't know if it's good to talk to him? I would be greatfull if you could pray i make the right choice

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I'm really struggling with sorting through some crap in my life. I feel really stuck and alone. Everything just seems so hopeless. I'd really just appreciate prayer right now.

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As an oncology nurse, I have the honor of meeting and caring for amazing patients and families. As a nurse we are supposed to care for our patients, not about them. We are supposed to somehow build a wall around our hearts to protect us. For someone with a heart like mine that can be impossible, as was the case when I met the man of my dreams who just happened to be a patient. I never meant to fall for him and in fact denied it and tried to stuff those feelings for a long time. While not unheard of it is definitely taboo and frowned upon for relationships to develop between nurse and patient. He is now actively dying and my heart is breaking. After an amazing visit last Tues night I was on cloud 9. We laughed, we talked, we held each other like we never wanted to let go, we took pictures. It was amazing. Until Thurs morning when my manager said the patient felt overwhelmed by me and wanted no further contact. So now I've been cut off from even his friend whom I'd been texting. Not a word since Wed night. I don't know if the love of my life is alive or dead. I don't understand what happened. All I want to do is sleep and never wake up. I've been to my PCP and a grief counselor from work but I don't have friend or family support. I've only known this amazing man for 13 months but he changed my life. I had to keep my feelings for him secret from my coworkers for fear I'd be fired. So now I am grieving all alone. The few who know now think I'm grieving from the rejection. I choose to believe he is protecting me even though it hurts. I'm grieving the loss of our once in a lifetime love. I'm angry at God. I'm angry at the system that's kept us apart. I'm angry at the cruelty of this world. And I'm so angry at cancer. Add to that the fact that 5 of the 7 people I gave up my life in NC for to move to AR (my brother and his family) are moving to TN the end of July and my only friend is moving to MD the end of this month and I really have nothing left to live for. I would love nothing more than to go to sleep and never wake up. This is all too much. Not to mention the suspicious lesion on my cervix. Results pending. All I can think is cancer. Occupational hazard.

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I have a final project due in a week but I procrastinated so long to the point of shame and embarrassment of walking into class because I don't have what's needed. This is my fault, but I am very upset and almost have no motivation to even finish the project. Please pray that God sends a miracle or that I have strength to get back up if I fail.

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please pray for me that God will be my security and will protect me from bullies. pray that He reminds me that He is on my side at all times. Also pray that my heart be pure so that it can forgive those who've wronged me. I pray that what has happened to me will be used by God to make me stronger.

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I've been feeling invisible to my friends, family, and even God. I don't have any battles going on and that makes it feel like none cares about ME . Like my friend has awful days, my brother is depressed, I try to encourage them but it always gose back to a lie that I don't matter. I feel like I'm just beeing over dramatic. It feels like God dosen't care because these lies keep coming and they won't stop. just keep me in your prayers

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Hello everyone. This is my first post here. I love how this is started with "What's on your mind?" - makes me smile...cause I have much on my mind.Anyway, I'd like to ask if you guys would join me in faith and prayer for my 6 year old daughter, Janet. She is fighting a rare and aggressive cancer - literally thought to be one of a kind in the entire world. She went through radiation and then high dose chemo therapy, and completed treatment in January, 2014. In February, 2014, it was confirmed that the treatment had worked - she was cancer free. In May, there were follow up scans that noted a small spot on her spine, just thought to be an enlarged blood vessel.This all changed when August, 2014 scans revealed that Janet's cancer was back, this time having metastasized to multiple locations down her spine. She went through cranio spinal radiation, and is now on cycle 5 of a new (relapse) chemo therapy protocol. During her most recent scans, we got a mixture of good and not so great news. The good news was that one tumor on her spine shrank a little bit, and the others were stable - neither having grown or shrank. The not so positive news is that there was this "enhancing nodule" in her brain again. It could possibly be effects from the radiation or is suspected to be metastasis - or the cancer having spread back to her brain.I'm sorry this is turning out to be so long. I really appreciate your taking the time to read, and especially if you will pray. Our prayer ultimately is that she be healed completely, and once again be cancer free. (The medical community doesn't seem to think this is a realistic hope, but I say it is. Our God is bigger than any cancer, and bigger than any tumor!) In the interim, if chemo is going to be a method to help get her there, then that she is protected from any negative effects of chemo - past, present or future. We are also praying that she is able to maintain her energy and appetite, and that her tummy keeps feeling alright. She is in chemo every day this week.All in all, we're praying for God's will for her life, and for our peace and strength as this journey continues. Many thanks, friends.

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Hi Friends:) I have a prayer request for my friend. He's from Brazil and has been in the US for a more than 3 years now. He's a senior and is looking for US colleges but they all keep turning him down, not because of grades but because of him being an immigrant and what not. He's waiting on two college responses now, and if these don't work out, he will be deported in early July back to Brazil. We are praying that God would make a way that he could stay in the US because the conditions down there in Brazil are terrible and he would not get a good education at all there. His family is very broken, he has no father, has just cut the connection with his Mom and is and has been currently living with his Aunt and Uncle. He also has no money of his own, and very little financial help from family ( can't get financial aid cause of being an immigrant) . He is a wonderful Christian though, and is trusting God through this. Please pray for him to find a college here, peace, protection, family healing and that God's divine plan (he always has one :) ) would be our ultimate goal and that it would reveal itself. Thank you Ladies:) Have a lovely day!!! :-)

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Hi Friends. :) This summer I have the opportunity to go on a summer mission to North Myrtle Beach, SC through a campus ministry called CRU. One of the biggest steps of faith is raising financial support. I am a little over halfway there, it's a scary thing to let God take over, take control and know He is good and has a plan. A lie that that I find myself believing is that this isn't where I'm supposed to be this summer. That because I will be newly graduated from college, I should be out looking for a job. The enemy doesn't want me to go and share the gospel and is trying to do everything to knock me down. If you would be praying for peace over this decision I've made and accepted for this summer, I would really appreciate it so much. I love all of you girls who read this blog that I find myself reading every week. Praying and cheering fiercely for all of you in whatever you are currently going through. xoxo

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Hello world! I'm currently attending a Ministry Discipleship School and I've got an internship coming up. I am not very good at making decisions (they scare me), but I need to try to figure out what I want to do for my internship. So I was hoping that maybe you guys could pray for me? I could really use it. I want to grow more with the Lord and I want to choose an internship that can best serve Him-that will have the most fruit. So any prayer or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!

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Hey y'all! So, I know that our bodies are temples and that we need to take care of them. I'm trying to take better care of my body, so that I'll be ready to do whatever Christ calls me to do. I know that diet is a pretty big part of your health. So as silly as this sounds, I was wondering if you guys had any easy(ish) healthy recipes/tips you could share? Thanks!

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Hi friends. This summer I have the opportunity to go on a summer mission in North Myrtle Beach, SC with a college ministry called CRU. Although I am super excited for this summer and being challenged in my relationship with God, I'm going to admit, I'm a little nervous. I've been fighting the doubts the enemy is trying to feed me that this isn't where I belong this summer, that being newly graduated this May, I should be out looking for a job. One huge step of faith has been raising support and the necessary funds. I am around halfways towards my goal, and although I know God knows my needs and has a plan, I would greatly appreciate any prayer. Thanks so much.

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Hey all...just graduated from college and attempting to navigate life in the "real world". I'm struggling in the area of friendships right now. It's been a difficult year seeing some of my closest friendships slowly start to fade. One of my closest friends got married last summer and lives in another state now, another just got a new job (in a different state as well), another is leaving for seminary on the other side of the country soon, and on and on it seems. I find myself...well, wallowing in myself...and missing these friends so much. I think it's okay and normal to be sad about these friendships changing, especially in this stage of life, but it's way too easy to just feel sorry for myself and isolate myself from others. Please pray that I would fight these pity parties, as well as being intentional about reaching out to these friends still, and reaching out to others I don't know well who are around me right now. I need an extra push and encouragement in this area right now. Thanks!

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Hey guys! So I'm 20 years old and I love to sing. In the past four years or so I picked up the guitar and started singing around local churches in my area. Just this past week I played at a small christian music festival nearby, and a youth pastor who was there came up to me and has asked me to be the worship leader for their youth group! This is super exciting for me, but I'm also really unsure about it. Like I said I've only been doing this for about four years, so I don't have a ton of experience and I'm the type of person that if I can't do a job well, I won't do it. So I'm not sure if I should take on this position or not. So if ya'll could just pray for me to make the right decision and to be open to God's will in this. It's something I've always wanted to do, I just don't know if I'm ready yet. Thanks ya'll!

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I grew up never really knowing love. I had great parents, I grew up in church, but I never really felt loved by them. The only time they ever told me they loved me was when I was being punished. And pretty much all my life I just pretended that my family was good. We were a "happy family" from the outside, but from the inside I felt like we were falling apart. Now, at 20 years old, I'm obsessed with love. I love to learn about it, I love the love that I receive from my family & friends now. But my problem is that I'm struggling with the right way to show love. I always feel like I'm showing love, and then whoever I'm "loving" ends up blowing up at me. So, I guess I'm asking if you all could keep me in prayer. That I'll learn how to love the way God loves. I'm also asking what you guys think it means to love someone?

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Please pray for my mom! She has to have tests done for breast cancer because of what doctors found at her last appointment. We are praying that it's nothing!

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I've been struggling with a lot of old hurts and relationship issues recently, and I just don't know how to deal with them. I would really appreciate prayer for guidance and strength as I walk through this journey.

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Been struggling with self harm for the last year. Friends don't know about it but I know I need help I'm so afraid though to talk about it

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I've been really struggling with self harm the past year and no one in my life knows about it. I need help to stop i know but im so scared to say anything please be praying for me

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Please pray for me. I'm trying to deal with sexual harassment and attempted rape. I used to love the Lord and spend time in His word everyday, but I have fallen away. There is so much bitterness and hatred in my heart. Pornography is the drug I keep going back to even though I loathe it. I feel like God resents me. I need Him to help me see Jesus because right now all I can see is pain. Please pray God would heal me. Thank you.

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Hello ladies, I need some prayer. This year I felt God calling me to be one of the female youth leaders for the youth group at my church. It has truly been amazing. He's blessed me through the teens so much. For the month of April I will be leading the lessons on Wednesday nights for the girls in the youth group. I'm only 20 so it hasn't been long since I was one of the girls attending youth group. My life is far from perfect. I don't have experience with teaching. But, I know these are all things God can use. I love these girls. I have a passion to pour into their lives. I was just hoping that some of you ladies could be praying that God would use me for His purpose. That he would give me the words to say. I love you all! Thank you!

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I am one year and 10 months clean from self harm and recovering has been the most difficult thing I've had to do. 4 weeks ago I got sick with constant headaches and migraines, and I've been in a really dark place ever since then. I've never wanted to harm myself so badly before. I am dead inside and running on no energy. I've started restricting foods again and my anxiety is on a high. I am completely numb and overall scared by how gone I am. My spirits have been higher the last few days but I can still feel the numbness. Any prayer and encouragement will go a long way.

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What's on my mind? Well to much. Any how I an a senior about to graduate from highschool and move into this whole new area if life. I honestly don't know what to do. I want to trust God and leave it in his hands. I pray and I pray I still don't have a definite answer. I have a passion for music and I've always had a desire to help people: this has led me to the possibility of music therapy. I am unsure of my self because although I am passionate about music I'm not naturally gifted in that area. I've met with and worked with amazing and talented people- and we cane to the conclusion I have the heart and with a lot of work I can get there. I just want to be sure if this is the right direction and that God will be with me every step cause I know I can't do it alone. In all honesty I'm terrified and I am struggling to fully give that to Christ. Prayer and advice are what I'm looking for but also just to get the words and fears out there.

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My life seems great to other people but there is so much hurt and rejection that I feel inside that I hide and can't share with anybody. I pray about it but it's not the same as being able to be real with another human, you know? I honestly don't have anyone though and it's gotten to the point where I have considered suicide, and that scares me. I really need prayer.

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Today I've been thinking about my past, I shouldn't do that but I do on occasion and today I am thinking about it too much. what I am thinking about now is stuff and past friends from 4 years ago people who weren't good friends and one that I wasn't a good friend to, she is my biggest regret. I pushed her away when I shouldn't have, I think I blamed her for things and just pushed her out. I feel terrible about it especially today, I don't why all this came to mind today but it all has and I would like prayer.

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Today my mom got surgery on a torn muscle in her shoulder. She had been waiting for a few months for it, and I'm relieved that part is out of the way. Can you pray she has a speedy recovery?

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Hi, I'm fifteen (sophomore in highschool) and I grew up in a Christian community all my life. Lately, I've been tired. Tired of everything. I pretty much rank top 1% if my whole grade and I'm basically known as the goody two shoes who follow all the rules. However, I've been feeling stressed out lately. I can't sit and do work. My grades are slipping and it didn't scare me, which scares me. I currently have a musical (a novel + a book) due on Tuesday, a research paper due tonight, a science investigation on sunday and a video following next wednesday. My teacher who knows me since I was in grade 7 told me that perhaps I'm dealing with too many things that I simply don't want to start. I guess it's the fear of failure that's holding me back, but I'm so tired of trying to cope with the pressure of being perfect. I want to do this all for God and I just feel like He's the only motivation left for me to keep on going. I need a break, but not after I overcome all this - which is hard for me to do. I would appreciate prayers. I'm struggling and I need help, but I don't know who to turn to.

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This week I've been very discouraged. I felt like crying every day and I don't know why. I'm having a lot of troubles in my life, but it seems that with everyone elses troubles are a lot bigger than my own. I try to love everyone because I know what it feels like to be hated but sometimes I really need to feel loved. if you could please pray for me.

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I am really struggling to continue hoping, and to keep my eyes on Jesus. Some life circumstances are really overwhelming right now. Any and all prayers are greatly appreciated!

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Hi! My name is Stefanie and I am 24 years old. Up until five months ago I had never had a boyfriend and that experience turned out to be pretty horrible. I always wanted to date and I have liked plenty of guys over the years but God never gave me the okay to date anyone. I have struggled with this on and off over the years, so much waiting. I have a blog, and a specific post that really shares my heart on some things. I just felt led to share this in hopes that it will minister to someone else who is struggling in a season of waiting. Here is the link: http://borntotravel-stefanie.blogspot.com/2013/02/battling-hope.html

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I recently was in a relationship with this really great guy... until I made several mistakes and screwed everything up. When we were dating, I couldn't see it at the time, but I was being very selfish and self centered. I was always finding something to be upset with him for and I never appreciated what he did for me; I only saw what "he didn't say" and what "he didn't do". When he broke up with me I was completely and utterly devastated but I can't say I blame him, I would have broken up with me too. I'm a that stage in the "after break-up" part, where you've cried and talked to your friends about it so much, that if you say one more word about the ex boyfriend, you'll more then likely be slapped. With more than plenty of time on my hands, these last couple of days I've really just spent reflecting on myself and I've realized that I am extremely and utterly all about Lauren. I think I've become my own god, and my whole life is suffering because of it. Throughout this whole breakup process, yes, my heart has really suffered and I've got to experience agony, but its also been humbling. My parents can lecture me and talk to me, but it's as if the action of him actually breaking up with me was a slap in the face. I know that it's wrong for me to be all about myself and I want to break this negative attitude spilling into my life because of it, but honestly I was so far away from God before all this happened, I feel as though this is just another thing piling up.

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What's something beautiful that happened today? For me it was that I got a spontaneous text from an old friend with a Bible verse that really touched my heart:)

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Hey. So I have a pretty big decision to make this weekend, and I'd really appreciate prayer that I know what to do. Thanks!

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Kumusta, hola, 你好, and hello! I am an American Divemaster candidate living in the Philippines, hoping to become a scuba instructor. Before that I was a teacher in China. Before that I was a student who spent time in Peru and China. I don't know where I'll be in two months, but I know God is growing me through travel and trusting Him with my next step. So blessed to have this journey to learn from! Any other girls out there travelling solo (or sola ;) ) and looking for a pen pal/long distance Bible study companion? Does anyone know of any global Bible study groups or communities? Every day is an adventure! Let's live it up!

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Hey guys! Right now I am beginning the last semester of my senior year of high school. As I graduate and prepare to go to college, I am a little uncertain as to exactly what I want to do with my life. I just ask for prayers that I will trust God and follow His will and plan for my life. I can't wait to see where 2015 takes us all! God Bless!

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Hey everyone. I have so many things going on I don't know what to do. My dad snores every night and I haven't been able to sleep well and that's made this major problem with me and my parents. Plus I don't know why I never feel right. I always feel like I should be somewhere else. I'm always running and I never feel truly happy with myself. Please pray for God to change and help me. Thanks!

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Hi, This year is the year I am determined to recover from my eating disorder. I have put it off for too long, and it's preventing me from doing what I should be doing with my life. If anyone thinks of it, would you please pray that I'll have the courage to finally kick this thing in the butt? Thank you!

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I've grown up very rooted in church, and my parents are both very strong christians, but my hardest struggle for most part of my life has been with my salvation. I'm really just stuck tbh, I don't know if I'm lost or if I'm saved or whether or not I've rejected God completely. A couple months back I tried for the longest time to work this issue out and it sunk me deeper and deeper into depression, so instead I chose to run from God. It's easier to not feel the pain, confusion, and depression rather than deal with it. I cried out to God with months on end with no response, so I guess I just gave up. I am tired of running, and I am tired of failing to reach the potential God has given me, but not really sure what to do at this point.

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Okay, so I'm gonna be real. In 2014, my devotional life was terrible. Like pretty much nonexistent. It's really embarrassing to admit. But I know that this really needs to change. In 2015, I am purposing to spend time with God everyday. But to be honest, I don't even know where to start. Like do I just read the Bible or do I use a devotional book or do I journal? Any tips or advice you have would be very welcome! Also, if you have any recommendations for devotional books or just books, I'd love to hear them. I really do want to grow in my walk with God and I know that in order to do that, I kinda have to spend time with Him. haha Oh, prayers for me to keep this resolution would be very appreciated! Thanks, guys!

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What are y'all's New Year's Resolutions??? I praise God for the lessons learned, tears shed, laughs laughed, and memories made. May we all approach 2015 with our eyes set on The Lord in hopeful anticipation of a year that glorifies Him for all to see! Let's tear off our masks and start fresh for the new year! <3

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Hey everyone. I am in serious need of prayer. I've had depression for a little over a year now, but it's gotten slightly better over the last few weeks. Something happened recently that sent me spiraling again, and now I'm in a really bad place. I just don't want to live anymore. I don't think I would ever kill myself, but I still have no desire to live or motivation to do anything really, and the one thing that did give me motivation has been taken away. So yeah, please pray. Thank you :)

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Hey Ladies!For the past three years I have struggled with an addiction to pornography and masturbation. After an 8 month period of not acting on either of those, I was getting ready to release a post on my blog with my story in hopes of letting other girls know they are not alone (which YOU are totally not). The devil crept in as I was preparing, and this week I have fallen hard into temptation. I could use all y'alls prayers in the battle against the enemy and for the Lord to be glorified in my weaknesses. Thanks. :)

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Hey girls!The Lord recently been convicted of dressing more modestly. Do you guys have any tips or fashion advice for dressing modestly? I'd really love to hear them! :)

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In mid-November, I heard about the chance to mentor a girl younger than me at my school. I felt like God was calling me to take this opportunity, but fear overtook me. I never stepped up to the plate. Now, it's almost Christmas break, and I feel horrible about not helping. I also feel ashamed that I might have disobeyed God. I'm just not sure of what to do.

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I'm a Catholic junior high volleyball coach & Bible study leader to my team. Several weeks ago, I had a 12 year old team member come forward about being raped by a 17 yr old boy. It occurred over summer vacation and she finally courageously came forward in early November. I'm numb. I know she needs me, desperately, because her mother is a homeless, drug addict, which is so very sad & heart-breaking for my student. No matter how desperately I'm clinging to the Lord God, I feel I can't allow myself to be close to this young girl because of her obsessive personality... I'm frustrated with myself for refusing to help her more than just turning her rapist into the authorities (against her wishes) & getting her into counseling. I keep myself at a distance knowing this poor, desperate child needs me, but also knowing I can't trust her with my cell phone number or personal life. I'm also limited by my job w/ the school. To add to this girl's trauma, one of our team captains came forward last week & told me this girl's father is also physically abusing her at home. I feel disconnected, sick, powerless & so very ashamed for not fighting for her the way I promised her I would! I feel emotionally paralyzed & don't know which direction to go, but for continuously looking up and BEGGING God for a solution to my strained relationship with her. I'm trying to be as supportive to her as I can, without betraying the Holy Spirit telling me to keep a safe distance from this child...

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Hello, I just need prayer going into this week of midterm exams. I've gotten myself so anxious and stressed I pushed myself into sickness, which isn't good. I would also love prayer for life in general, as I have been struggling with depression. I've been trying not to self harm, but lately it's become really hard not to. Thank you :)

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Hey ladies! Just a prayer request here....tomorrow night I am teaching a seminar on purity for about 20 girls. Never done anything like this before so I'm pretty nervous. Thank uuuu!

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I am really stressed and tired of life. I've never felt like this before. I need prayer please. I feel dead or asleep just dark and alone.

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I resently celbrated 1 year free from cutting ! and I have dropped most of my insceritys I'm so joyful for all the things God has done this year.

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I cannot wait until Christmas break! Anyone else excited?!!??

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There's a girl in my school with a disability who, until a few years ago, had never had a single friend in her life. Today she has one friend, and that is me. Don't get me wrong, I value out friendship, but lately I feel like things have gotten out of hand. She invites me to hang out every Friday and Saturday night and I feel like I'm constantly making excuses to her. She literally follows me everywhere and we are constantly together, even during the school day. It's gotten to the point that she plans her schedule so that we have as many classes together as possible. I feel strongly about not excluding people, but I never get a chance to hang out with anyone else because either my time is filled by her, or she finds out somehow about my plans with other friends and passive-aggressively invites herself. I'm getting really stressed/burned out over all of this, but I don't know to do because I'm the only person she has to hang out with.

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There wasn't any right category for mine, but I guess anxiety is relevant. I have recently been released from treatment for mental illness, and I would really appreciate prayers that I can keep myself healthy without a doctor to help me.

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For the past six or so months I've withdrawn from God...I don't really know why, I think Ive just been under a a lot of pressure with school/life. But old weaknesses have been coming back to haunt me and I've been struggling with porn and some depression again. I feel like I'm never gonna dig myself out of this whole.

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My dad passed away unexpectedly this August two weeks after giving my boyfriend his blessing to take my hand. Please pray for me and my struggle with depression and anxiety. Please pray for my relationship with my fiancé that we can continue to grow closer to God and to eachother, even when it's hard.Please pray for my mom, that she will have peace and strength. Thank you for your prayers.

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This year I've taken a new leadership role in my youth group as a student leader. At leader meetings the adults never stop ranting about me as the "righteous one." They say "thank goodness we have people like you to set an example for the younger ones", and "thank goodness we have you to show the others how to live purely," and "thank goodness we have a leader who isn't falling apart and is focussed only on God." I'm the opposite of all of these things and I can't stand the pressure to be so perfect all the time. I'm not a "good church kid"...I swear, I gossip, I struggle with addictions, I don't pray enough, and I hate that people perceive be to be this model Christian.

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In 2013 my mother became very sick, she's been my best friend since I was born. I fell into depression, anxiety, and to a point I blamed God. It took her more than a year to miraculously recover. It was such great joy, a testimony and long journey I'm so grateful for. 2 months later after her healing my brother was diagnosed with cancer, then we learned it had spread. Life was just so overwhelming after having a whole community pray , my brother cancer had no longer spread. Doctors were baffled so he only had radiation therapy done. He finished it just 4 days ago. He's in a lot of pain and can barely walk. Within this trial my other brother was found a mass, thankfully the biopsy was benign. 2 weeks ago my father was told he had nodules in his lungs and was referred to a pulmonologist. Just like everything else I am certain he will have his miracle as well. Today I'm asking for prayer for my family and their health. These past two years have been the hardest on me. Nonetheless I see Gods hand continuously and faithful. I am human so I still do worry. I worry because my brother and father are on a two year treatment list. For two years they'll be given tests to see if cancer has come back or if it even has surfaced in my fathers case. My brothers are 32 & 31. My father is 58. My dad has recently come back to Christ but my brothers have not. I can't have them leave this world with reconciling their relationship with God, it's terrifying. Sorry I've written so much, I think we tend to when we have so much going on within us. Please pray for my family, for their health and for their salvation. Thank you all.

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Please pray for me as I am getting over a crush with a guy. We aren't really that close but I see him every once and awhile and I'm nervous whenever I see him. Also that I would be able to fully trust Jesus through all of this.

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Really struggling in my relationship with God rn... so if i people can just pray that i would find strength in him alone and completeley surrender

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Please pray for me.. I have a job interview tomorrow and I am pretty nervous.

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Please pray for me as I am finishing out my first semester of college. I'm super stressed because I'm failing one of my classes, I have a bunch of homework to catch up on, bills to pay, and I've gotten sick on top of it. I'm trusting Jesus, but it's so hard not to worry sometimes.

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please pray for me as I am going through a lot of anxiety about my future life. Though i have graduated from an engineering college, i don't have a job due to poor performance in some of my semesters.

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pray for me overcome this depression I am in. I am sinking further into it, and I need God to save me. I have been distant from him, but I know he still loves me

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Overwhelmed with stress and exhaustion from one of the toughest semesters I've had in my 2.5 years of college. Frustrated & disappointed with how I've messed up in classes when I'm normally a straight-A student. Pray for peace and the ability to learn and press on from my mistakes rather than dwelling on them.

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I have been struggling with self harm for the last few years and I feel like I can't get out of it. its like im in this hole that only gets deeper. I so wish to be free

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Hi all! I'm so excited about the new site! I am currently struggling with healing from something that happened to me during eighth grade. It's been a couple years now, but I just started dealing with it a couple months ago. During the second semester, I was sexually harassed and assaulted by a classmate. I am trying to heal now, and trying to run to Jesus. I'd appreciate your prayers and support. I love A Girl Like Me- it's helped me so much already. I'm looking forward to getting to know you all!

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