January 8, 2013 by agirlikemee
If there is one thing I can say to be true of myself it’s that I’m snob when it comes to being in control. I like to get things done, and there is a very particular way I like to see it happen. I like to have a plan, a schedule, a list and an organized binder with all of the above. I thrive on taking chaos and making it orderly. I have even joked that being in control is one of my spiritual gifts. So when faced with the idea of relinquishing control, I fight tooth and nail to not see it happen.
This iron clad grip I have to being in control is something I have had for my whole life. In a lot of ways, it had become such a strong part of who I was, it started to destroy my life and relationship with God. So, on a whim with a bunch of crazy band dudes one night many years ago, I got a tattoo. Forever etched on my wrist in black and white is the Hebrew word for surrender. I got it to remind myself that my life is not my own and that I must daily open up my hands from the tight grip of control I have and surrender it back to the true Giver of Life.
Time passes, and like a lot of things, you forget. For a while, seeing my tatto every time I did my hair or washed my hands led me to a prayer for surrender and a giving of myself. But eventually it became commonplace and I quickly fell right back into my old habits of control.
Now I’m not one to do New Years resolutions. I actually hate them. I find them to be a set up for failure and despair. So when people talk about them, I tend to stick up my nose and look the other way. There is, however, this new movement I have been seeing pop up all over twitter. It’s called One Word 365. The idea is to take one word, any word, and make that your focus for the year. One word to sum up who you want to be or how you want to live. I was a little hesitant at first about the whole thing til I saw a blog post by a girl named Alison, one of our lovely friends and AGLM readers. Her description of her one word and what she was going to do with it this year sent a spark of inspiration through me. And just as quickly as the idea for my tattoo came to me that warm spring night six years ago, my one word flashed in my brain in a millisecond.
This year, I really want to know what it means to surrender myself to the Lord. And not just the obligatory “Thy will be done” kind of stuff, I mean the every day, simple, ordinary things. I want to live in the hope of Proverbs 23:26 that says “My son, give me your heart and let your eyes observe my ways.” so that in my act of surrender, I may see and know him more. Even if it hurts, I want to surrender. Even if it means a year wrought with more pain than joy, so be it. So this year, I want to seek to surrender:
-My time: Allowing God to use it to it’s fullest and for His glory
-My speech: To be kind and gracious and uplifting
-My home: To be a place of refuge and respite
-My money: To give it away and not on myself
-My family: To go and be and do whatever Christ demands of them
-My insecurity: Seeing myself through His validating eyes
And so on and so on and so on….
So here is my challenge to you my lovelies….what is your ONE word? What is your word that you need to offer up to Christ and make your anthem for this year? There is nothing to resolve. Nothing of our own doing to make ourselves better. Our one word is about HIM changing US to make US more like HIM. And I am calling you out to take up this challenge, name your one word, and for the next year, ask God to take that word and do with it what he will.
Let’s make this year not about bettering ourselves, or for me, holding on to everything so that it fits into our plans. Let’s make this year really about allowing Jesus to make us into who he longs for us to be. Really giving the Father our hearts and letting our eyes be open to all of his wonderful ways.
Are you in? If so, what’s your one word?
** Read about the One Word 365 challenge at www.oneword365.com **
**Read Alison’s amazing post on her one word right here **